Getting into troubles

Sometimes I wonder how I get into troubles and wana get off the painful way. Sometimes I get angry and then all things falls appart. Regardless of that sometimes I actually like to inflict pain on myself when I know something will get me more screwed and I just keep on pushing it. This just happened right now but for some reason I want it to keep it like that. I dunno why I did it but I guess I just like the argument.

I guess is the feeling of being powerless regarding something and the frustration transform into anger and then you just want to start hurting somebody.

This time I pull off not before doing a pretty good mess. It could be worst, I agree but still a mess that I will have to clean up. Oh the drama.